Several years back,Unexpectedly my life changed as I knew it. I had to learn to adapt to a knew way to live everyday.. and to except the change that I had no control of. I began learning new things about people and the world…I started to become bitter, mean and full of blame. I would go to bed at night with so much hatred. Then one morning I woke up in a hospital bed, so vulnerable and needy. I was so ashamed that I was a burden to so many around me. I felt embarrassed that I could be in this situation. As a began to recover, I realized I have to look at my life differently. I had so much despair..I had to become a change within. I wanted to find a place where I could see people differently, see where I fit in with people differently. I began to put myself in very vulnerable situations. Places where I really didn’t want to be. Everyday learning new things of people and of me. Knowing that I will not judge ever again..ever again. and mostly not worrying about being Judged. Never again! I would not lose sleep about being angry hurt or distraught over things I can’t change , but awake everyday knowing I am doing everything I can do by doing, showing and saying the right things and trying to be as aware of everything around me. I live within boundaries now, that I know are safe and as free as I can make them…and yet everyday I have things enter my world that test me and try to affect me and I just keep knowing I have to just keep doing everything I can do to be the change within.
we are not capable of changing the enviroment..we can only change us, our ownselves to make a difference..and hope the people that displease us and hurt us so badly will have the courage to do the same.
I say YES because I am too live by this!
“I no longer have patience for certain things, not because I’ve become arrogant, but simply because I reached a point in my life where I do not want to waste more time with what displeases me or hurts me. I have no patience for cynicism, excessive criticism and demands of any nature. I lost the will to please those who do not like me, to love those who do not love me and to smile at those who do not want to smile at me.
I no longer spend a single minute on those who lie or want to manipulate. I decided not to coexist anymore with pretense, hypocrisy, dishonesty and cheap praise. I do not tolerate selective erudition nor academic arrogance. I do not adjust either to popular gossiping. I hate conflict and comparisons. I believe in a world…
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